I always wondered artists do look up for muse and they find their muse, and then they write, or sketch or Paint or take photographs of their Muse.

I always was curious when will I find my Muse, I thought my Muse are closed friends or people who I like alot. So I took photos of my two of my female friends and named that series as Muse. But then as time passed I thought no these are not my Muse, they are just my friends. Then again I lingered on to what and who my Muse is.

After months, today I realised that muse is someone or anyone that gives you inspiration to create something new. Or to imagine something new.

Recently I found a female, on Instagram, I don’t know her real name, it’s just her username I know. She recently started her new page of boudoir.
Showcasing her own boudoir photographs.

Now you’ll ask why is she inspiring, she’s inspiring because she’s not a teenage girl who likes to earn followers but, she’s a woman, a mother of a 7years old kid. And I could feel her confidence through her photos.

In a country like India, a woman doing boudoir for herself, for her satisfaction or her confidence is commendable. Not every woman does here. May be they love to take their pictures but because of society cultures they can’t express how they feel truly.

Considering all this, and a 7yr old kid, don’t you think it’s a commendable confidence and independence.

I being a photographer, always was intrigued with human body, that’s why I mostly shoot Portraitures. And boudoir Photography is one such genre I am really intrigued.

Because she is a woman having a kid, she has natural stretch marks, and that’s pretty normal. And you know what, that makes her more special.
Females now apply different types of cream and lotions to hide or remove these stretch marks but this woman, my Muse, is all natural, and this is the reason for making her my Muse.

She’s beautiful, she’s mesmerizing, I have seen her pictures she’s full of life. She is curvy, and I fall for curvy girls.
I beleive skinny girls are for boys, and curvy girls are for Men, and I love curvy females.

She has nice thick long hair, I have always said, I love females who have long hair. She has long hair around her waist.

Her thighs full of meat, one can keep kissing and licking her thighs and she will keep admiring you for that. Her legs are in great shape, looks smooth in photos, I wish I could check them in real too.

Her waist is broad, but hey that’s what you are here for right. But then it is said, when the waist is broad, then that means there is more room to eat 😉

You know they say you shouldn’t keep the best for the last, so here I am doing the same. I am sure you all have seen mangoes, they are huge, perky from bottom but full of juice and sweetness. Her boobs are just like that. And I can’t take my eyes off her boobs. They are big, just the apt size I love, nipples are perky, dark in color, indian females have dark nipples. Her cleavage is way too deep but when you got to dig the well you have to go deep.

She has a very sexy panty which has words imprinted, that says Sweet Little Things. You know the more and more I watch her photos and more and more she uploads her photos, the more I feel to meet her. That sweet little things, I genuinely want to taste how sweet it is. But she told me she doesn’t like pussy pictures so I will not click Pictures in which her pussy is visible. Because for me client satisfaction and consent is more important.

She keeps uploading her pictures everyday. She showed me her collection of the images, and I should tell you the pictures are stunning.

I feel She wants to express alot with her photos, she just wants to be free. She wants to tell her story, and I am really intrigued to know more about her and her story.

That’s why I have planned to meet her, not now after this pandemic is over. She stays in different city far off my place, but definitely I will plan because I have to shoot her pictures, she has love towards boudoir and I love boudoir photography, when like minded people meet, the outcome is always better.

Hoping to meet her soon.

Beyond the Small Window

“It was all past, I don’t have feelings for you now, also I am loyal to my partner”, she replied to me.

I said, ” ok yeah, I understand”

I saw the time, it was late enough, it was 3.30am, I told her its late, I am sleeping now.

She said good night friend, have a good sleep.

And I switched off the WiFi and went to sleep.

There was a white flash infront of me and went to flashback.

“Hello Jesbie, (name changed due to privacy) How are you ?” I texted her on Ablo Messaging App. She replied “Hello friend, I am fine, Hope you are also”

She was spanish and I don’t know how to speak Spanish but the Ablo app automatically translates our conversation to our native languages.

It was a nice Goddamn app to connect people around the globe, I don’t use it now, as it is now paid, and it was free then, and no In-App purchases.

So she was a baker, actually she is a baker, she really bakes nice cakes, and cookies I have seen her pictures delicious cakes she bakes.

I get well with Taurus people, because I am also Taurus, Jesbie, is also taurean.

She is a lil chubby but she has a nice skin color, I have seen her pictures, we used to share our pictures, but not now, she is in love with someone else.

Our days were opposite, our time zones were different, but still we used to text and chat alot.

Because it was the initial time of Lockdown around the world, everybody was free and had time, so we used to enjoy our talks alot.

After few months, we were very open to each other, she started developing feeling for me, and we used to Video call each other, and those video calls and text chats turned into Phone Sex for us.

Ablo was strict in its privacy and security policies so we shared our Google hangout IDs and started chatting on Hangout, we do still chat, only chat, not much but.

So we started sharing our nudes to each other, we used to do phone sex with each other, on Hangout. She used to love my lips, she always asked me to kiss her, and virtually on video call I used to kiss her.

Then slowly we used to remove our clothes one by one. Black was her favorite color. She used to wear black all the time, she used to remove her black top, and then watching her in Bra, I tend to get hard. Then I used to remove my Tshirt.

We usually video call when it’s night here at my place. I only wear track pants and a t-shirt during the nights, and nothing else, so when I used to remove my t-shirt I used to be bare chested, she liked my chest, my hairy chest, I should say.

I used to kiss her virtually, and then she used to touch her boobs, she used to press them softly, then she used to remove her bra, and infront of me there were massive beautiful boobs of her.

Damn her boobs I still remember are big, her nipples wooww, yummyy, I wish I could just suck them, and play with her boobs.

She used to moan alot, I used to kiss her, and lick her virtually on the camera.

Then I used to point my camera downward, I used to show my bulge. I still remember, when I first showed my dick to her, she was so timid, so shy, I still remember her face she hid her face with pillow.

She used to like my dick, she always said that she Wanted to lick my dick and suck it.

Then slowly she used to point her camera downward showing her chubby belly and naval, and then to her panty.

Her panty were also sometimes black in color, just to tell you guyz I get a hard on when I see a female panty, she used to pull it out in front of me, ohh damnnn that was the sexiest part.

Her pussy little hairy sometimes, but I like it, she used to spread her legs for me, so I can see her beautiful pink pussy, amidst her thick thighs.

Thighs that I would lick all over, to her pussy, wet pussy. She used to tell me to kiss her and make moan her name, I used to do that.

We used to see each other while we masturbate, that was really sexy, she used to like me alot, she is genuinely a nice person.

I used to show her while I cum, she said she always wanted to lick my cum. She used to say I wanna hug you.

I would love to hug her too.

But she doesn’t do such things with me now, she’s in love with other person.

I sometimes feel to do again with her, but she’s like she doesn’t want to do with me as she’s loyal to her boyfriend.

I understand that, but exploring self love, with someone isn’t bad what do you guyz say?
Someone whom she started feeling good about her body.

If anyone wants to connect with me on Hangout then do let me know.

Also comment ,what do you feel, should she connect with me again or not?

Sex and Pain

This title works well with Workout sessions, or anything that involves physical exercise or any kindof transformation or anything that requires hardwork and struggle.

What about sex? Sex is also a kindof physical exercise, it do burn out calories.

We have been told by almost everyone that during sex we feel a lot of pain.
Pain that is sometimes also referred as Sweet pain, because that pain is loved by all.

But the fact is that during sex yes it pains. But does it pains alot or just a minimal popping pain.

One of my friend was discussing with me that, I haven’t even thought of having sex, because it really pains alot.

But how does my friend know that it pains during sex, she doesn’t have had sex yet.
It’s all because she’s been told that it pains alot.

Sometimes its all psychological, if you are told in the childhood that you have ghost under your bed, then yes you will see that ghost even if we all know that ghost doesn’t exist.

Similarly you have been told that it pains during sex, so you will surely feel the pain, even if you didn’t felt.
Instead of focusing on your love making process you will focus on pain, and this ruins everything.

So then what is the truth?

I am not saying here it doesn’t pain, yes It pains but it depends on some factors.



Majority of times it has been seen that people experience bad sex or painful sex because of their sexual partner.

If you have a good sex partner then it might be possible you’ll feel no pain or comparatively less pain.


Sex is not just about releasing your sperm out and impregnate your partner or just fucking your partner.
Sex is alot more than that. Sex is love making. You and your partner get close to each other, it’s an intimate process.
It involves exchange of feelings, liquids, communication etc.

People who make love, out of intimate feeling experience alot less pain, instead of those who perform sex to just have sex.


Communication is utmost important during sex. Communication doesn’t necessarily mean talking to each other during sex. Communication also involves telling your partner what do you want during sex or what do you like during sex, or just telling if you are doing right thing or not. And these are not necessarily communicated through words or talking but also through actions, Expressions.

People with better communication during sex experience less pain. Because they tell to each other what they like and what they don’t prefer.


Every body is different, from each other. Some men have tiny penis, some have average, some have big and some have huge.
Or if I talk about ladies, every vagina is different. We all have seen it. Need not to go in that detail.
So my point here is, if a huge penis person is having sex with a female who is virgin or who is not so sexually active or whose vagina is not that open definitely yes it may pain more. But also not necessarily because we have already read above, that you have various factors.

Well lubricated vagina or penis likely to cause less pain during sex. It’s simple science friction plays a key role during sex. If vagina or penis is not lubricated well it may cause more pain.

Now we’ll not go deep into lubrication here, as it is all there on Internet.


Oh you don’t have a hymen that means you are not a virgin, oh no, so that means you had sex. Oh gosh but you haven’t had sex till now, so why is your hymen not there?

Relax girls, hymen is just a tissue that usually gets ruptured during vaginal sex.
But due to increase of sports enthusiasts and workout and dance female tend to rupture their hymen even if they didn’t had sex.
Hymen can be ruptured during sports, dancing or any other physical exercise that involves spreading of legs and physical tasks.

Female with hymen, tend to feel more pain when they have sex because technically your tissue is getting damaged or ruptured so you will feel some kindof pain, as hymen is a kindof hinderence inside a vagina or in simple terms is like a speed breaker.
And you drive slow when there’s a speed breaker, so if your partner is a good driver he will slow down his penis and slowly he will drive his car through your hymen you may feel less pain, considering all the above factors as well.


It is well known fact that anything which is done on regular basis or daily or which is overdone at times, the marginal utility of that activity will be reduced.

Similarly people with high sex frequency feel less pain
Because for them sex is just another daily chore.

So then what’s the conclusion of all this.

Wherever there is physical exercise there will be some or the other kindof pain involved.

But pain during sex depends on various factors that we have talked about above.

Rather than focusing on Pain, focus more on communicating with your partner. Focus more on your love making process. Focus more on love.
Ok in the case of One Night stands focus more on satisfying your partner, word of Mouth is very powerful, your next One Night stand depends on it.

People are so afraid of pain that they don’t have sex with their partner, even after they get married. They are ok with the councelling of adopting a child but are not ready to go to councelling for having sex.

Never ever get afraid of sex, unless it’s non consensual sex.

Sex or love making is an art. Do not complicate it with the fear of pain.

If you found this piece of information useful, then do like and share with the people who really is in need of this information.

Or if you have any questions or if you want to talk to me about anything please feel free to message me or contact me, I would love to listen to you.

Her Skin

Wet, splashes on the mirror, hot steam in the bathroom, she was taking shower, inside the transparent bathing area of bathroom.

Dark brown, wet long open hair, till her waist was quenched with water. Only wearing her skin, she was glowing in the water. I could literally see the steam rising from her body.

She was standing facing the wall, I could only see her back and all the water flowing through her hair to her back drop by drop flowing through her curvy body and well toned hips to her more toned thighs and legs.

It was hard for me to just stand there outside doing nothing, I slowly removed my bath robe, that’s all what I was wearing from last night chores.

I slide the glass door open, she gently turned a bit and through her peripheral vision she saw me and smiled.

I leaned against her from back and hugged her, my hands wrapping her around waist to her centre of the body, she moaned a bit. She turned her face a bit and started kissing me slowly gently, but I am a beast, I couldn’t control myself , and started biting her lips and kissing her wildly.

She moaned a bit, she pulled my hair, and said, “kiss me slowly”. I then turned her and facing each other I started kissing her slowly as she desired for.

But I am a beast, my hands doesn’t stay at one place, my hands cruised around all over her body, arousing her more, and anchored themselves on her boobs.

Softer than the marshmallow, round as a cotton ball, big as mellons, and fair as snow, her boobs is the place that makes my cozy. Her cleavage deep as hell. I started pressing them softly as she always liked , but today she said, ” do it your way”. And that was like launch button for me. I grabbed her boobs tightly, I pressed her nipples tightly, though her boobs very fair, but her nipples were a little brown and I loved it.

She moaned alot, she was wet I could understand, as I could feel her hotness.  She started biting my lips now, and her hands were all over my back. Her body was wanting something, and I know what she wanted.

I tap down the shower, held her hands and took her with me. I pushed her on the bed like that straight from the bathroom all wet, bed sheets were all wet.

I kissed her bit her lips made my marks on her neck. Kissed her eyes, and slowly moved down.
Kissing her navel, she had a tatoo on her navel.

I kissed her tummy she moaned a bit, before I could do, she herself spread her legs for me. And there it was in front of me the gates of heaven. All wet dripping wet in front of me, the ocean of love, getting ready to be a waterfall.

The heat I could literally feel it warm, the sweet smell, similar to the fresh rose petals when u boil it to make perfume. I kissed her petals, they were wet, I licked it, and she moaned more. I started licking her clit, and she lost her control, she was like an open tap, continuously leaking.

With my tongue, I tried to open her pussy petals, pink as rose, soft as petals.

I saw her face, I saw her eyes, I know what her eyes were telling me, I know what she was begging for.
I moved towards her pulled her hands and gave it to her, and like a small child she started playing with it. Like a lollipop she  started licking, slurping my dick. While I was on the seventh cloud that time.

When she was done playing like a toy and sucking like a lollipop, I went down again, kissing her pussy, licking her, I slowly and gently, started rubbing her clit with my dick, while she kept moaning, and leaking. I teased her by inserting just the tip and pulling it out, again and again.

She pulled me closer and with her ecstatic voice she said, “fuck me, fuck me “

And with one thrust I was inside her, for a moment everything just got still, she stopped breathing, I lost my breath too, I kissed her lips, bit her lips she wrapped me around and with second thrust I was fully into her, while she with long nails black painted, scratched me all over my back. Her nails dig into my skin.

But the joy of being inside her was more overpowering than her scratch and pain
After keeping it still for a while, I started to make love with her, back and forth slowly and slowly speeding up the pace. I was held her boobs and grabbed her boobs , started biting her nipples, I love her boobs so much, that I could sleep on them.

She felt like she was bursting out, I could feel the rush inside her pussy, and that feeling made me aroused more and with the few next thrust we came together. She had a great flow, that got mixed with mine.

Though our bodies were two different, but at that moment we were one.